I‘m so sleep-deprived today it’s not funny anymore. It’s bad when I really can’t remember my Swedish, and notice that I’m babbling odd things to my patients - like when I’m in the middle of a sentence and can’t remember what I was saying.

Thankfully the medical stuff seems to be more ingrained  into The Shiny Brain than language, because I don’t have any problems with that. Yet. I did shortly after the break-up with my ex, because I didn’t sleep at all and was so done for that I started to mix up patients and almost wrote someone’s prescription for someone else. I took sick leave as soon as I noticed (which was before anything happened, thank God).

Yesterday I had another weird run-in with my ex - you ILCS guys know the situation. I decided to follow everyone-and-their-brother’s advice to have a clean break for a while. We just can’t do the friends-thing yet, and the constant drama really bothers me.

…schliesse meine Augen zu.

On top of everything else he started talking with a person again who used to bad-mouth me quite a bit, and it upsets me more than it should. With that I mean, I probably shouldn’t be upset at all since they’re in a different country and this is of no consequence to me. At least it upsets me much less than it used to, and it’s even better today than yesterday so I guess I’m on the right track.

Yesterday night I had this thing where the stitching went absolutely perfect - no knots, no twirled threads, no mistakes reading the chart - so I stitched a lot on Dragon Luck. Just one more thread, just one more 10×10! Until it was after 1 a.m. Then I made the mistake to think that I was pretty sleepy and could try to sleep without a sleeping pill - one guess as to how that worked.

I didn’t fall asleep until about four in the morning and then I had weird nightmares about work.

I’m sooooooo looking forward to coming home and taking a nap.

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